Isaiah 53:6

"We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all."

I think i've made the mistake of thinking that i could control my own life. It's not my life to control..it's God's. This life, this body wasn't created so i can control myself..since God's the one who made me, He's the one to control me. and yet, i've foolishly tried to take control, try to make things happen for myself. And then i come across this verse.

My dad grew up in a farm when he was a little boy, and he told me how sheep are actually pretty dumb animals..they're really naive and dirty and have absolutely NO sense of direction. That's why there are shepherds, to keep them from getting lost or whatever..haha. But that's how scripture describes us. We are the sheep..we are stupid, naive, direction-less. Only by the guide of the shepherd can we find our way without getting lost. Yet, this is how i've been living these past couple months. All that hurt i had to go through was because i wandered away from God, like sheep. I tried taking reins of my own life, and it landed me further from God than i ever thought possible. Isaiah 59:2 says, "Your sins have separated you from your God". That was definitely a wake-up call.

The world says to be your own person, a unique individual, and while that's not terrible, God's gonna come along and say that I need a relationship with Him first, before i make my own decisions.