undone worshipper

gosh.

i just finished the 2nd chapter of our praise band q.t. book...and i absorbed every single word like a sponge. it just talked about everything that i needed to hear. one in particular was about jonah and the fish. God told Jonah to go preach to the people of Ninevah, but he decides he's too good for it or whatever and walks away. but God's like "oh no you don't", and sends a huge storm unto his ship, landing Jonah in the belly of a ginormous fish.

when God gives you a gift, talent, opportunity, WHATEVER, to do His work, you don't turn away from it. sure there's personal struggles while trying to figure out how and if you want to use those gifts for God. i know there's so many times when i just wanna drop everything and just focus on my schoolwork. Lord KNOWS that i could use all that time studying so i can up my gpa, get a good job, etc...but every time i think it, this story comes to mind. my talents are gifts from God so that i'd use it to further His kingdom. not to boast of my own abilities or anything, but to make His name known. but if i try to walk away from it, then God will put me down so that i could see that it's all up to God. i don't wanna end up in a fish's stomach..that's gross! but that's what happened to Jonah, and he ended up doing some serious reflecting, and was safely regurgitated. :D

But...on the other hand. we shouldn't take our gifts and boast our name. we're indispensable... we're nothing. God doesn't need us to do anything. He's God, He could do whatever He pleases. but because He's the loving Father He is, He wants to give us these opportunities and work towards Him. God's a funny guy. He works in such mysterious ways. it's mind-boggling.