God, is that you?

During prayer meeting yesterday, i was falling in and out of sleep during prayer time because i'd had a rough week/day, and sleep was easily coming to me.. and as i laid my head against the wall and let myself drift off to sleep, i felt like someone turned on the lights. it was interesting; inside my eyelids, there was a huge bright light, and so i opened my eyes, bcus it was pretty uncomfortable. yet warm. but neway, i woke up and started to pray...i think it was God nudging me to stop stopping and keep praying. so that's what I did. and, i can't remember what i prayed about, but i was with God. or should i say God was with me.

I think one of my biggest faults is guilt. i tend to feel guilty about everything, and God's love is one of them. but, He also tells us that's a sin. i can't help it though, my subconscious is always going towards the guilt bcus i don't deserve God's love, but you're supposed to not do that! how do you fight with your own subconscious? Christopher Nolan should make another movie about that...