back again.

It's really hard now that i'm home, where there's a COMPLETE lack of privacy, for me to spend a quiet time reading and meditating on the word. I've consciously been putting off doing my QTs for more than a month now..and as always, I've been slowly hearing God's voice urging me back into His company. The passage i read tonight didn't seem anything like a revelation or didn't leave me feeling convicted or anything- it was just purely God-breathed, and me reading/soaking it in. nothing to relate to, not one of those "this is exactly what i needed" sort of passage. It was just a chapter of the scripture, and me reading it and hearing God speak it.


Psalm 90.

Moses says how life is so temporary and can be gone in an eyeblink. Nothing in this world is permanent, especially a human life. But God is. He's been here since the beginning of all beginnings, and will still be here till the end of all ends. Even with such a majestic God to call our Father, we still pretty much piss Him off with all our sins, especially the ones that we do in secret. I'll be the first one to say that i've got lots of skeletons in my closet. There are things that absolutely no one knows about me, the things i've done/said/felt; the things that are only between me and God. Things that I'm shameful of, proud of, angry about..and while i hide them as best as I can, Moses says that all these things will eventually come out into the open. This is why he tells us to ask God for divine wisdom. humanly wisdom is like dust, nothing and light and unclean; and which is why we need the Holy Spirit's power moving through us and within us to see when and how we anger God. Let us not waste any more time on futile human behaviors and wisdom, and gear towards being receptive to Godly rebuke and teachings.