d ee p b r ea t h .

so, here i am. sitting at my desk at almost 1am in the morning. i'm halfway through my 2nd week of teaching at ELP. where do i even begin to unload my thoughts....?

the only thing that i can say first, is that God is good. simply amazing. i can't believe how fast my life changed within. there i was, not knowing where my life was going to end up, studying aimlessly for the GREs, making a mental list of potential grad schools... all the while thinking in the back of my mind "i'm gonna be stuck like this forever." and then within a timespan of less than 1 full week, i'd heard & learned, even applied and interviewed! for this place.

my 1st week was nervewrecking of course. after my grandma left, i had no idea how i was going to survive on my own...& right when i thought that, i hear people moving in next door, and who can it be other than my fellow new teacher. my age, similar personality, even same background (as we were both PKs), both fluently bilingual...both scared shamelessly to start this new job...yep, God's timing was impeccable.

1st week of teaching- love allll my students. i get to teach grades 1-7, and then a conversational class with adults. sure prepping and planning and organizing takes a while,.. i'm still not done organizing my files on my desktop, i only get 10 min breaks between classes, i go to work @11, come home @11....it's not a walk in the park. BUT i love every minute of it. even my first 'bad day'... i came home almost on the verge of tears, but i was still so deeply thankful. because i'd rather have something to be upset about rather than nothing at all.

and now in the midst of my 2nd week, this joy & elation is just continuing to rise. i'm loving every minute... every smell (yes, even the stanky garbage everywhere), every walk, every class, every student, every co-worker,... love love loving it. but mostly, thankful and amazed.

my journey thus far has made me realize how precious, short, and unpredictable time is. i hope that all the things i say & have been saying recently is not disheartening or seems boast-like to anyone. i only want others to see how prayer and how God works;;; mysteriously, and all on His own timing. our timing or our plans, our meticulously thought out schedules even, mean and are nothing compared to God's timing.