trying to fill in that God-shaped hole.

it's that vague feeling of emptiness you feel from time to time. you can't exactly say what it is, because you don't know. you mistaken it as something that you're lacking..maybe like you've lost touch with the social world, or even you're just physically hungry.. or maybe its even feeling a lack of doing something productive.. boyfriend/girlfriend.. the possibilities are endless.

so you try to fill in that gap, hole, that whatever..with your finger. just plugging it but only temporarily. because eventually, your finger will get tired of filling in that hole. so then you try other things..like worldly stuff.

i'm so caught up in the world and myself sometimes, i forget to closely look to see what that hole looks like. maybe for some, that hole is in the shape of money, cars, boy/girlfriend, food even.. but i think i realize what mine is in the shape of.

that hole i feel is the shape of God. i'm missing God..and it doesn't feel right. i thought i had it all down, my spiritual life and the like.. but God's telling me that i'm still not doing it right. i'm not doing it for the right reasons..for the right person. i'm not living right, yet. i wish there was just this plug from reality that we can plug/unplug ourselves from so that we can do some deep soul-searching. knowing this world, maybe some crazy (but genius) person might come up with something like that. sorta like the matrix. but until then, i need to learn to fill that emptiness, that void, or longing with God. Bcus at least He won't get tired of filling my emptiness.