all is good in God's timing.

i recently found out that one of the people who i'd been praying about didn't necessarily come to Christ, but started going to church on her own will. i had such a hard time with her a couple semesters ago, because she leaned on me for everything but anytime i tried to even bring God into the conversation she would turn her head away. it was so difficult and discouraging, but still i didn't stop because of the value that i found in our friendship. what i thought would be a breaking point occurred right before Christmas break last year, when she asked me for something that i absolutely could not not NOT do for her, because it went against everything i believed in. i really wanted to help her out because she was literally in pain, but i couldn't. she felt betrayal, and i felt helplessness. nothing ever really resolved, it just all glossed over and she soon moved away. but she visited last semester, and told me that she'd met a guy who went to church and that she started attending once in a while.

i wanted to give up so many times during those semesters that i knew her, because she always knew something was missing in her life and heart, but was too proud to let that void be something that was greater than her. on the other hand, it was frustrating for me because i'd prayed for her practically everyday for her to even expose herself in a Christian surrounding, but God never moved her heart for her to agree to come with me to church. what am i trying to get out of this? God's timing.

He works in such mysterious ways, and truthfully i'm still trying to figure out the mystery of it all. nothing really adds up. why he made me spill all those tears for her in frustration and pity and sadness, and it was only after she moved away that she slowly started letting her guard down. i'll never know. Ephesians 1:10 says- "he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ." So what if i had a hard time because of her? SO WHAT? God was doing everything in His own time, and who was i to complain of His great works? i still don't know if she's accepted Christ into her heart and life, but all i know for sure is that God is working and He is mighty and good.