teach me to obey.

God is so generous and loving and compassionate. the things He gives us are things that we don't even deserve. why He would entrust into stupid creatures like us, i'll never know. but He does over, and over, and over again..it's neverending. ever since i was little, i remember getting everything i want. this didn't happen in the very literal sense, but if i take the time to look back, God provided and gave me everything i needed. so in time, i got used to it, i got "spoiled" and thus growing to take advantage of God's graces upon me. Matthew 25 talks about the parable of the Talents- it's becoming one of my favorite passages. God gives 3 men different amounts of money, and all but one are active and diligent with what they're given. the third man who hides it in the ground is totally disrespecting and disregarding God in his action (or should i say lack of?). God entrusted something that was His to them, but the third man didn't do anything with it. he just sat there idly thinking he was being wise by not wasting or risking.

i feel like that stupid third guy a lot because God has given me numerous chances, opportunities, things i don't deserve, and He entrusted them all to me because He loves me and calls me His child. but what do i do with them? nothing! like that foolish man, i let it all go to waste because of my laziness and lack of motivation to be productive. i justify myself by thinking of all the risks, but God doesn't judge on the outcome. if that third man invested but came back with only a little, God wouldn't have been angry. He's not that kind of God! instead, He would've praised him like he did the other two: "well one, good and faithful servant! you have been faithful with a few things; i will put you in charge of many things. come and share your master's happiness!" v.21 i act lazy and foolish most of the time like that third man. i don't sow the seeds that God gives me. and by (not) doing that, i disobey. teach me Your ways, O Lord.