I am His Masterpiece.

Years it's been since my 4-month-long "incident" with those "supplements", and yet still I find myself to be craving them. Every day, every hour, almost each moment I am conscious about my body and how my image looks to others. Even when I'm alone, i'm tugging at my t-shirt so that it won't fold between my "extra skin".

To some it may just seem like old habits as i absentmindedly tug at my clothes or fix my posture, and to others it just may seem like i value well-grooming. Both are true... but also some other not-so-pleasant stuff. 

It's that constant desire to be pleasing to the eye. 

Sure, it's good to desire that from heavenly standards, but mine are more worldly. When did i become so obsessed with physical beauty? When did i value the exterior more than my interior, my health? When did an empty shell become a priority against my character, my soul? The substance that actually matters? 

Then randomly, i heard a whisper so faint that i still can't tell whether or not it was in my head or if it was an actual whisper that came through my ears and through my temporal lobes; and that was David's Psalm:

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 

God's character goes into every person that He created, whether deemed perfect or imperfect by society. When I feel worthless and ugly and un-valued, it's important- no, necessary to harness that thought back to God and remember all that He is. In the end it doesn't matter what the world says is beautiful and ugly; beauty trends go in and out every 10 years! How fickle it is for us to be obsessed over something that is more temporary than each breath.

I don't think my insecurities will ever go away, because that is part of the chains that I am tied to for living in this flesh. But each day can be better and my thoughts less occupied by these because I am His creation. I have parts of God in me that may not be in anyone else. He tailored us specifically to be unique and individual, possessing some qualities of Him that He chose not to put in anyone else. And yet we are all united because we each have God's Spirit within us.

I am more than this month's beauty trend, not because I wear this not that, or because I hide flaws with makeup,... but because the Holy Spirit resides inside me.


I am His Masterpiece because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.