loss of words.

i'm not gonna lie..i've been neglecting the Word and spending time with God. I don't know why, but whenever I want to pray or prepare my heart to spend some quiet time with God, my heart feels suppressed and i end up doing something else. this happened just in this past week too..i know i've been praying more this semester, and i'm pretty sure my series of nightmares are a part of that too. demons trying to attack me in my sleep, you know.. all that good stuff. i can really tell there's a spiritual warfare going on right now, and not just with me personally but with everything else that's going around me. sometimes, when I want to pray for the church, i feel an enormous weight just pushing down on my chest and heart, and then i just get silent in the middle of prayer because i don't know how/what to say. but then, this is when we ask the Holy Spirit to intervene and help us to pray. because like it or not, satan is actually kinda stronger than us, and he can zip our mouths too if he doesn't want us to pray. but if we truly and wholeheartedly ask God for the gift of the HOly Spirit to come down on us and help us pray, i'm pretty sure we'll be okay.

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express."
Romans 8:26