kinda just what i needed. coincidence?

now that I'm one year older, i'm suddenly very aware of this huge cloud of impending doom hovering over my head. doom? more like the uncertainty of my future...yes, i'm THAT worried. i've been constantly feeling that anxiety growing in my belly..like butterflies or something, and except that it's unpleasant. rachel and i were jokingly talking about this the other day, but it kind of stinks being "average". i'm not terribly good at any one thing, my grades aren't top-notch, i'm very normal, average. which has its pitfalls because the western society primes us from a very young age to stand out and go above and beyond. but that's what the WORLD says.

2 Peter 1 says: 3 His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. i've been given all the tools by God. now, all there's just left to do is try to minimize my attention towards the physicality; ignore those butterflies in my tummy, and listen to what God might be trying to say to me. He's basically invested himself in me so that i can do things through Him.

4 Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. ignore what i can or can't do, and focus more on the greatness of God's powers. through Him, anything's possible. cliche, very very cliche- but nevertheless true.